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Considering the date, it's no wonder Kelly's been in my thoughts. Rest well, my friend.

And for anyone who doesn't feel that one person can have an impact, well... I consider Kelly a dear friend. I never met her in person, but she made a difference to me. We would each shoot little things back and forth, not a lot, but when we found something that we knew the other would get a smile from.

I still miss that  I can olny hope that, when it came to those smile-worthy items, that I gave as good as I got.
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Do you ever feel like you have read the entire internet?

Sometimes, whole days go by before I check twitter, lj, or even facebook, and there has been so much stuff, I know I just can't catch up to it all (and a lot of it isn't worth the effort, to be honest.) Then I have stretches like this, where I have nothing but time, and even twitter moves at a snail's pace. Maybe I should follow more than 40 people... Anyhow, I decided to go re-read parts of Kelly's journal. It's really hard, especially her last entries that were full of pain and searches for help that could not be given. But under that she was always so tough, and looked for joy and kindness where ever she could.

Anyone who has read my lj knows that I am going through some stuff myself right now. Totally different from Kelly, because my diagnosis and treatment is straight forward, but still scary, and I have still had to spend a few nights in the hospital because of it. Part of me is relieved that I don't have to burden her with my problems. She had enough second hand encounters with cancer! But selfishly, I wish I had her to talk to. She could always make me laugh until I cried.

I wish I could have done more for her when she was alive - seen her more, talked to her on the phone more. You can't change the past, you can only learn from it.

Two years... (and a day)

I didn't make it to the computer yesterday, but I wanted to post "to Kelly."

I miss her a lot. My husband got me Beatles Rock Band for Christmas, and I wish I could have her come over and play it with me, even though I worry that the trippy graphics would trigger a migraine. I still love the Beatles, but listening to their music makes me a little sad now.

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Yesterday was Kelly's birthday.  This weekend I got to go to a Halloween/birthday party for a mutual friend from high school.  I didn't talk about Kelly, but I was thinking about her, as I do every Halloween.

Kelly's Mom

I thought I would share this here.  Kelly's brother Scott posted it on her Facebook wall:

Rest in peace with Mom sis. I hope you've found her.

Now that all four of you are together, you can play a good game of cards, or Majong :)

01 July at 23:26
Her friend, Keri, sent me a message to let me know that Kelly's mom passed away at the beginning of July.

One year ago today...

Today I watched the latest "Red Dwarf" special.  When we were in high school together, Kelly and I used to quote British comedy to each other all the time, especially Monty Python.  This particular episode was not especially good, but it had some really funny parts that I know she would have laughed at.  She had the best laugh.
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heh. Just a nostalgic moment. I've never been to St. Martins, but I have cups from there , a coupele of them, which is cool, since my sisters and brother have been there. Doing the dishes and seeing it yesterday, I wondered if shivedheart and her father got as much kick out of that, would have been as amused by the cups, as my sister and her husband are or were amused by Morton salt (their surname is Morton, and ergo, ther are a coupel of pieces of art and so forth in their home, featuring Morton salt canisters).

Ah, Kelly, you're still missed.
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